My sister Victoria died at the beginning of the year, in January. Iíve been thinking a lot about where she is, in every respectÖIíve been thinking about all the elements and particles that make up the earth and its creatures, and the universe, thinking how we are all very much connected to each other and the natural world, how we mix and match and change form, come together and dissolve to reform into another shape and existence. Where is she now? Victoriaís body is gone, but the fact that I think about her all the time points to the ongoing influence of her energy. I took a series of photographs of her in the ocean, at Nauset Beach on Cape Cod, two years ago when we all knew it might be the last time she would be with us enjoying the warm summer water and the sand. As Iíve been painting these scenes Iíve thought, sheís now a part of the sea and sky. She was a dynamo, and now her energy is the surf, and her effervescence the foam. Her very minerals linger, transitioning from earth to water and air.
I was born and raised in New York City, but we spent almost every school holiday and summer on Cape Cod. I moved to California in 1987, and live now in Redwood City in the San Francisco Bay Area. All along, in all these places, I have gravitated toward being outdoors. In New York my favorite place was Central Park. On Cape Cod we ran around in the woods and fields. I love to be on the beach, and even better, in the water. I feel lucky to live in California where I can hike around the hills and take a short drive to the ocean. When I paint it feels like a journey as I study the shapes and colors and lay down washes building up the scene from photographs, memory and imagination. Iím happy to look at the same view outside, day after day--there is always something new. The close observation, struggle, and occasional transcendent moment are inquiry, at once scientific, psychological and philosophical. Perhaps over time, as I try to clear away what is extraneous, the layers of all these different places will distill into a clearer understanding of the bigger picture.